I would like to think that I am quite reliable when it comes to my family or close friends. I mean, I know for a fact that there have been plenty of times when I have disappointed each and every single one of them… but I hope that I’ve always been there when they needed me to. I also think that I can be reliable up to a certain point.

I’m not gonna get into the nasty details, but I just do not like it when I get taken advantage of. There are times when people need to realize when I will not be willing to bend over backwards for them. *sigh* I really do think I’m too nice sometimes…

…my website, but:

Oh, Kanye! Why must you ruin everything?! *runs away in tears*

I’m just making fun now. If you’d love to try out this meme, type http://kanyelicio.us/ on your browser address bar (including the forward slash) and type your website address right after. It’ll load up your website with the Kanye West graphic overlaid on it. It’s quite amusing, really…

And oh yeah, if you have no idea what I’m talking about, then you’ve been living under a rock since last Sunday night! I’ve been jammin’ to Taylor Swift (not that I haven’t ever anyway) even more lately after the incident… such a talented girl.

Summer is officially over here in Canada as the Labour Day Weekend passes. I haven’t blogged much since June, so I guess the mandatory catch-up post is needed. It’s too bad that I didn’t get a proper summer… especially with the weather we got over here in Toronto. I did make proper use of all my days off — rain or shine! Here are the things I did this Summer 2009…

I took a trip to the west coast (my first time) with many, many thanks to my BFF, Sean! We actually coordinated with Steve so we were all there at the same time. They were both so generous to actually do the touristy stuff again because of me. I loved it there so much that I cannot wait to come back! While there, we went to Whistler & Squamish, Victoria, and of course, toured me all around Vancouver… including gathering up some courage to walk across (I actually jumped up a couple of feet while on it!) the Capilano Suspension Bridge. Also, I loved that Pierre was there at the same time for work-related stuff. We didn’t get to see each other much because of his hectic schedule, but I was glad to have gone out for drinks and dinner with him! Everything in there was so surreal and just breathtaking. I wish I could have stayed longer like Steve did (they both went to Kelowna… boo!), but there’s always a next time!

On July 17th 2009, my cousin Sally decided to finally tie the knot with her stalkee fiancé, Ron! The whole family was looking forward to this seeing as how this was open bar a great way for our family to celebrate their marriage and have a reason to dress up. If you didn’t know, I helped create her wedding giveaways and slaved on it for about 6 weeks (and almost didn’t quite make it to deadline, I tell ya!). I had to burn 90 Lightscribe discs for her (thank God it was only the label part and not the audio too… and oh yeah, it was a 2-disc set that she gave away — Tanaz did the other half!) from late May to about the first week of July. All-in-all, the wedding was a blast (including the giveaway… hehe) and everyone had a freakin’ awesome time. If you haven’t seen the photos, just click on the collage above…

There’s always a weekend in June where we let all our inhibitions go and just party for a whole weekend. Wait… isn’t that every weekend? Just kidding! Anyway, Toronto Pride weekend was super awesomeness this year since it was the very first year that Mr. Huebl was able to finally join us to party! Earlier this year, I dared him to wear a pink feather boa with me for a whole day… and little did he know that I actually am a man of my word. He sucked (tee hee!) up enough courage to actually do it… and we actually were somewhat the life of the party. Strangers, hot boys, and drag queens totally spotted us and wanted to take photos with us! Of course, who were we to disappoint?! Let’s just say that for now, the boas are in a safe place waiting to be resurrected and re-used by the two of us next year… ;)

Summer always means that I’m usually overbooked because there is always a birthday party to go to each weekend… sometimes even three of them even fall on the same time (Yes, I’m talking about you: Sheryl, Allie, and Jess!!! Mmm hmm… LOL) This summer wasn’t any different. I celebrated with Katie, Sheryl, Melia, and Aleenah. Katie had her celebrations at Milestones (along with her mom and dad from England) and The Social… we had a big dinner party at Bâton Rouge for Sheryl and ended up at Jack Astor’s for drinks… Melia’s was just a fun and relaxing family BBQ at the Ducatel Palace… Aleenah’s was at Chuck E. Cheese’s, and let me tell you that I think that us adults had more fun than the kids in there (as you see in the photo gallery…) Fun times indeed!

We had a chance to take care of Jaylene and Melia while their parents were away to Jamaica (grr!) for Falesha and Shane’s wedding… so we took them to the zoo! While it was one of the extremely (and rare) hot summer days in the city, we managed to see most of the zoo and even get to go to Stingray Bay… where we actually got to touch and pet them while they were swimming by. It was quite cool and we even got splashed at a couple of times… all thanks to Pierre with trying to grab them! :P

On opening weekend, we (Paula, Jasleen, Monica, and myself) ventured out to The Ex. After getting picked up so early by Jas and a parking permit fiasco, we were on our way to eating 99-cent spaghettis, corn dogs, Tiny Tom donuts, and funnel cakes (Which reminds me, did you know that there’s a permanent funnel cake place in Toronto now? Clicky on the link if you’re interested!!!) We were there for a good 6-7 hours checking out things… we spent a whole lot of time in the Armed Forces exhibit, in the Food Building, checking out the hot and shirtless boys in the FlowRider, the EXpress, and washrooms.

On the final weekend, I went with Pierre, Katie, and Simon! We had free admission to The Ex since we were going to The Killers concert. It was Katie’s birthday present (from June) and it was well worth the wait. They were SOOOOOO AMAZING live and it was such an energetic and enjoyable show. Plus, it helps that Brandon Flowers gets hotter by the day. It was really fun to finally see how Katie gets in concerts… let alone a concert featuring The Killers — both our most favourite band ever!!! It was an awesome time and we were all just singing along the whole time and dancing and jumping all over other people in the Molson Ampitheatre lawn.

That was my summer, folks! How about that for one well-needed catch-up post, eh? ;) Oh yeah… check out this short clip I recorded while The Killers was performing “Read My Mind”. You wanna know how excited and how much of a fan Katie really is? Listen to her screams of sheer excitement during the video…

I know what makes me comfortable. I know what makes me tick.
When I need to get my way, I know how to pour it on thick.
Cream and sugar in my coffee right away when I awake,
I face the day and pray to God I won’t make the same mistakes.
All the rest is out of my hands…

I don’t know my father or my mother well enough,
It seems like every time we talk, we can’t get past the little stuff.
The pain is self-inflicted.
I know it’s not good for my health,
but I know it’s easier to please the world than it is to please myself.
All the rest is out of my hands…

I will learn to let go what I cannot change.
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change.
I will learn to love what I cannot change,
and I will change whatever I, whenever I can.

My partner, closest friends, and family would tell you that I am probably one of the most patient people in the entire world. There have been a few things in the last few weeks that have been stressing me out and getting to me… to a point where I’ve completely given up and stopped caring. Over the last weekend, I have gotten some chance to mull it over and weigh out options. I have decided that I’m not going to let that get to me anymore. There is really only one thing in this world that I regret, and I’d love to keep that list that short. I will just move forward and go on each day knowing full well that I’ve done anything and everything… and I have people that can back me up on that. I think that’s the only weapon in this battle I’ll ever need.

Well, not really…

I’ve known Steve for about 5 years now (through Sean) and since Sean always jokes around how knowing me made Steve more gay (in both personality and wardrobe), I’d love to take this time and show you how serious this whole situation is.

You see, I knew Steve had the potential the very first night I met him at Sean’s birthday party years ago when he was wearing a baggy sweater and jeans, while he had little or no product in his hair. Since then, Steve’s absorbed every fashion tidbit that I sent his way like a sponge… and what better time to give him a Ryan makeover (more like I actually dressed him in my own clothes) than during Pride Weekend. Dare I say that he totally rocks the vest and tie?

He’s been gay-ified by moi… and yes, we were two hot tranny messes with the pink boas on during Pride! ;)

I always neglect this blog of mine from time to time. I will admit that I will do a posting blitz for a few days, disappear for a few months, and come back again for a bit. I feel like it’s just a vicious cycle with me and writing on here. I was at a point where I had decided to completely close this blog and just stick with Twitter. I realized then that there are just some things that cannot be said with just 140 characters.

What would be some things you’d like me to be talking about in this blog? Any of your suggestions would be fine!

I am also tweaking this blog a bit — and it’s going to take me the next couple of days to do so. The first change you’ll notice is that there is a new layout. I’m also overhauling my categories and tags, and that’s going to take me a couple of days to do. I got the cosmetic part done already so that the only thing that’s left would be the inner workings of the blog. I hope that you’ll like the streamlining I’m doing with everything.

You’ll most definitely hear back from me again. It’s been a while, and I feel like there are a lot of things you need to be caught up on… :)

Until then!

…always get me down. And it happens that it was both of those things today! Whew… what a rainy Monday it was, but that didn’t stop me (or other people) from doing fun things. :D

I was really doing more errands on this rainy day, but Allie and myself ended up at The Eaton Centre while waiting to meet up with Jess for sushi. What ruckus did we cause in the mall? Well, we walked around for a bit and checked out some stuff… nothing really came to mind much except for a few pieces here and there. Somehow, we ended up in TNA and inside their photo booth (picture to follow)… and hilarity ensued! I’ve also been meaning to get a new case for my iPhone, and so I did… that was after we played around with Photo Booth in an iMac.

It was nice and fun to catch up with two of my fave girls once again… and I believe we will be doing this types of things more often.

I am just on a roll, aren’t I? :)

Anyway, this is how I thought the last year (2008) passed by… with lots of fun and dancing!

I created this slideshow on the first week of the year, but I wasn’t able to post it up properly until now. I hope you enjoy it.

I was bored one night a couple of months ago when I didn’t have a computer, so I wanted to try and see how I would fare in graphology. I wrote a few sentences on a blank piece of paper, sent it off to get analyzed. I totally know that this is a pseudoscience, but hey, I had nothing better to do, so I thought it would be fun.

Anyway, the results came back, and I was quite amused at how most of the things in the analysis were spot on:

You are selective when picking friends. You tend not to trust everyone. You have a select group of people that are truly close to you, usually no more than five or six. You are very careful when choosing your inner circle of friends.

You can be quite sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect your ego when you feel hurt. You poke people harder than you get poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

You are a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth.  This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. You need to visualize the end of a project before starting it.  You find joy in anticipation and planning.  Notice that I said that you plan everything you are going to do — that doesn’t necessarily mean things go as planned.  You basically feel good about yourself.  You have a positive self-esteem which contributes to success.  You feel that you have the ability to achieve anything you set your mind to.  However, you tend to set goals using practicality — not too “out of reach”.  You have enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, you will not take great risks.  A good esteem is one key to a happy life.  Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, your self-perception is better than average.

In reference to mental abilities, you have a very investigating and creating mind. You investigate projects rapidly because you are curious about many things. You get involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but soon must slow down and look at all the angles. You probably get too many things going at once… but when you slow down, then you become more creative than before. You then decide what projects you have the time to finish. Thus, you finish at a slower pace than when you started the project. You have the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind; the other is the creative mind. Your mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. You can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. You can then switch into low gear. When in the slower mode, you can be creative, remember longer, and stack facts in a logical manner. You are more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

You are very secretive. You have secrets about you and others close to you which you does not wish to share. You have a private side that you intend to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in the past.

You are moderately outgoing. Your emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, you can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. You have the ability to put yourself into the other person’s shoes. You can be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes happy; the next day, sad. You have the unique ability to get along equally well with introverts and extroverts. This is because you lie somewhere in between: an ambivert. You understand the needs of both types. You will not tolerate anyone that is too “far out.” You don’t sway too far one way or the other. When convincing you to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal. You put yourself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet you will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. You are a very expressive person. You outwardly show emotion. You may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story! A “middle-of-the-roader,” politically as well as logically. You weigh both sides of an issue, sit on the fence, and then will decide when finally has to. You basically don’t relate to any far out ideas and usually won’t go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially.  According to the data input, you don’t write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

If you know me personally, what do you think of the results?

I have been quite MIA for a bit since my PC died earlier this year. Yes! Can you believe that I have not had a PC since January?! I’ve finally been able to get my hands on a new one (withdrawal wasn’t such an easy task, I tell ya!), so you will slowly see some catch up posts in the next little while to just kickstart this whole blogging thing of mine once again…

I hope you all missed me ’cause I sure did!

Here’s a little new music for you to get you off your feet (for now) courtesy of Frankmusik:

I’ll be back blogging before you know it. Try not to miss me too much again… ;)