Street lights

Let me know, do I still got time to grow?
Things ain’t always set in stone
That be known, let me know

Seems like street lights glowing
Happen to be just like moments
Passing in front of me
See, I know my destination
But I’m just not there…

There are just times when I’d hop in my car at night and just drive around aimlessly at nights when I cannot sleep. I find that just driving alone in silence can really clear your head and just relax you for a while. There’s nothing more relaxing than the feeling that you’re behind the wheel and you have the power and/or control to just go wherever you want, anytime. It’s also quite good to just listen to all the street din and bask in the glow of passing street lights. For a brief moment, you know where you’re headed, but you know you just can’t get there yet. You then turn back home and know that you will eventually get to where you want to go. Once you’re home, you know that you have the option anytime to just get to where you want to be, and just go.

Twelve days before

I can’t even believe that in less than two weeks, it’s Christmas. I have been so caught up with work (and lots of rest) lately that I haven’t even remotely begun shopping for gifts. There has been a lot going on, and choosing what to give for Christmas is not really what has come across my mind yet. To tell you the truth, I don’t even know where the last year has flown by. It seems only a few months ago where I started going back to school (in January), but it’s been almost a year since. Toronto Pride (in June) feels like it just happened weeks ago. *sigh* Oh, how time passes by so quickly…

The first half of the year was mostly filled with school-related happenings, while the latter half has mostly been a whirlwind of sorts: from awesome summer happenings, a job promotion, and random occurrences that totally throw a curveball in your life. I will admit that since the summer, I’ve had my share of ups and (maybe more) downs. I guess I am quite lucky to be surrounded by very good and supportive friends. Without you, I think I would’ve already gone totally insane, especially in these last couple of months. For that, I am truly blessed and eternally grateful…

I don’t really quite even know what I want for Christmas. I usually don’t ask for much. To those who know me really well, you know that I’m just a simple guy, and never ask for more than what I need. Yes, I do love my tech gadgets from time-to-time, but I’m not usually extravagant with those either. I wonder if Santa would even consider me as being “nice” this year. I have tried my best, and we all know that it is not easy. In my opinion, naughty or nice, everyone is deserving of what they want for Christmas. Maybe as it gets closer, and I start my shopping, I’ll eventually realize what I truly want for the holidays this year. For now, I just wanted to reflect on how seemingly quick time has gone. I know that I have to take a breather from it soon, or else I might just drive myself crazy. I’m hoping that the rest of the year goes off without a hitch. Then I know I can start another year and hope for the best…