Is it just me or did Adam Levine become sexier since the last album?
I still don’t have the reason / And you don’t have the time / And it really makes me wonder if I ever gave a f**k about you / Give me something to believe in / ‘Cause I don’t believe in you anymore / I wonder if it even makes a difference to try / So this is goodbye…
I had already been asleep for a couple of hours, but I woke up again to go to the washroom. After that, I couldn’t easily fall back to sleep. I decided to finally watch the latest episode of Grey’s Anatomy to catch up.
I thought it was a very well-written episode. There was a lot of character development on this one and as well as the set-up to George’s potential exit/leave and Addison’s spinoff. I mean, if you didn’t see that one coming at the end of that episode… she basically has nothing left in Seattle Grace, and when a person is in that position, the decision that pops into your head first is to pack up, leave, and start a new life. I can’t wait for that show!
I just love how this show always makes me contemplate somewhat about life after each of those little ending narrations. I always relate to them, which is a plus, and why I love this show so much. In the end, it was said that “Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Desire leaves us heartbroken. It wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don’t know what they want.”
I have experienced wanting something you can’t have and not knowing what you want. It is so true that you suffer more if you’re confused about what you want. I’d rather be heartbroken over something I can’t have. At least I know that I made a decision, and I wanted something. Yes, most of the time, things are easier said than done. Confusion always clouds up your judgment and sometimes you don’t realize what’s in front of your very eyes until it’s gone.
I’ll tell you this though.
Right now, I have a clear picture of exactly what I want and I can have it.
And I will go for it.
So, I was at work today, and most of us are wearing the new Flick Off tees to support the campaign. If you haven’t heard of Flick Off yet, it’s basically an organization that’s creating awareness about global warming, and asking everyone to “flick off” the lights to save energy when they’re not being used. The logo of the campaign looks something like this:
Yes, you are seeing that correctly. It does resemble another certain phrase. It creates attention and buzz… and that’s exactly the point. Roots created their gear for the campaign, which are basically our organic cotton tees with various graphics on them with the logo. Today, I was wearing the cream-coloured shirt that just had that logo.
Back to the story… These two gay guys come in to the store before noon. I say hi to them and they see the Flick Off tees on the table in front of me. Guy A picks up a blue tee and decides he should try it on. Off he goes to the fitting room while Guy B waits for him. After he tries it on, he buys it, and I’m back behind the desk doing some paperwork, so my boss rings him up for me. Guy A and my boss starts talking about the Flick Off stuff and global warming and how it’s good while Guy B and myself listen. So I look up at Guy B, and he’s smiling at me, and we start a conversation:
Guy B: So, where’s your switch?
Me: I’m sorry. Say that again?
Guy B: I asked you where your switch is. You know… your shirt.
Me: *laughs* Yeah, they’re cool eh?
Guy B: So yeah, where’s your switch? How can I turn you on… or off?
At this point, my boss clearly heard what he said so she turns to me and we look at each other. We wanted to laugh at each other since I totally just got picked up at work by a guy, but we know we needed some professionalism, so we held it back. I turn back to the guy to resume conversation.
Me: It’s somewhere on my body, but I can’t say any more. If we were somewhere else, then yes, I’d reply.
The best and witty pick-up line I’ve ever heard from a guy. I can’t believe he actually used my graphic tee to flirt. He was actually cute too! Aww… only if I wasn’t at work.
There are a heck of a lot of things going on all at once in my life right now that have added to my exhaustion and stress in the last month. Coming from a high from my birthday events last month, it’s nice to know that life has decided to balance it out now by putting me in a oh-so-down mood lately.
I’ve been feeling lethargic lately and I might be getting sick. I will go to the doctor soon to get it checked out and get some medication. I should be all better in a week or two.
Oh Lord, there are a whole lot of things I wish I could talk about now. I would really love to share it, but I just can’t. The privilege will go to my closest friends, and of course, my handwritten journal.
Maybe sometime in the future, I’ll be able to share what this added stress is. For now, let’s just leave it be, and be assured that I’ll be fine.
At least I think I have to be fine after all this.
